optimism

trust is the active engagement with the unknown

i don't know for sure, but i am willing to believe it

i trust, yes.

confidence is when you see you're deeply flawed and still hold yourself in high regard.

i have that now, maybe it's the one thing i can rely upon

i don't know what to do these days, where to go, whom to speak with, how to handle some stuff.

i have no idea what i'm right about or even if,

but i am prepared to stay with the discomfort and to do what's necessary to move ahead or at least, to stagnate in a way that's needed

fall and try again, fall and try again.

i was tempted to find a way to hijack, biohack or cut corners so that i could move faster through this

that was just my arrogance kicking in.

it's out of the way now.

so i'm left with my self and the world around me

holding me until i can hold myself again

fully, actively, proactively, optimistically, completely

and wholeheartedly knowing that the biggest container of ourselves is, indeed, grace.